Cafeneaua gandurilor mele

Ultimele ore din 2009. Dupa o zi agitata si pregatiri, ascult Pro fm love si privesc bradul.  Ma duc cu gandul inapoi, la anul ce-a trecut. Recenzia ultimului an si-o face aproape oricine, inevitabil. De aceea multi urasc 31 decembrie. E o zi facuta pentru a-ti vedea greselile, esecurile , dar si pentru a zambi la amintirile care-ti vor umple mereu sufletul.

Multi mi-au zis azi ca 2009 a fost un an prost, oarecum. Ca n-au fost planuri implinite si nici toate dorintele realizate. Eu nu pot sa-l definesc in vreun fel: rau ori bun. Sunt multumita si dezamagita in acelasi timp. Nu totul a iesit asa cum mi-am dorit, nu mi s-au indeplinit toate visurile si nici n-am zambit mereu. Dar .. perfectiunea ar fi plictisitoare, nu? Momentele grele, nereusitele si lacrimile  au rolul de a te forma si de a-ti deschide ochii la greselile tale sau ale oamenilor care te inconjoara. A fost un an complex. Din filmul amintirilor care se difuzeaza in capul si-n inima mea, pun pauza la cele frumoase, le contemplu indelung si zambesc din suflet. Peste celelalte trec suficient de repede incat sa nu ma afecteze si suficient de lent incat sa-mi extrag invataturile de minte si sa-mi vad greselile.

Sunt optimista, azi. Asa vreau sa fiu. Am ochii increzatori si mi-am pus multe sperante in 2010. Imi place si ca cifra. Plina, intreaga. N-are cum sa nu fie bine.

Ma gandesc la ceea ce regret din 2009 si ce-as schimba. Apoi realizez naivitatea mea. Nu am cum sa schimb nimic, viata oricum isi va urma cursul si experientele prin care am trecut au locul lor in ea. Iau binele din rau. Ori transform raul in ceea ce ma va ajuta sa fac bine. Nu vreau sa am regrete, doar sa trag o LINIE puternic conturata intre 2009 si 2010.  Sa las ce-a fost in urma. Vreau, cu siguranta, un an mai bun.

2010 e o treapa pentru mine. O multime de lucruri se vor schimba, voi trece la o alta etapa. O sa-mi lipseasca anii de pana acum, desi am zis de-atatea ori ca vreau sa plec. Am avut o copilarie si o adolescenta frumoasa, am fost inconjurata de oameni care au tinut la mine. Am prieteni adevarati, ceea ce nu poate decat sa ma umple de bucurie si mandrie. Le multumesc oamenilor frumosi care mi-au fost mereu alaturi, pe care ma pot baza, pe umarul carora am plans si care mi-au ascultat ofurile. Cu ei o sa-mi petrec sfarsitul de an. Nu cu toti, dar cu majoriatatea. Asa sper sa ramanem tot anul. Va iubesc si sper ca si voi pe mine. [ :p ]

Vreau anul acesta sa-mi iau toate examenele( care vor fi multe rau), sa intru la Jurnalism, asta e dorinta si visul principal, sa am parte de oameni dragi alaturi, de iubire, de senzatii si de momente. Vreau sa invat sa spun DA si NU, atunci cand trebuie, sa stiu sa accept provocari si sa-mi urmez inima si instinctele. Sa nu mai am prejudecati si sa primeze ceea ce simt.

Intru cu o stare de bine in 2010. Vad o foaie alba in fata pe care-o pot colora cum vreau. Acum am sansa sa repar toate greselile, sa fac alegerile potrivite, sa fiu mai buna , mai desteapta, mai frumoasa ( ) ) si, in primul rand, mai putin lenesa – sa nu-mi mai pierd timpul cu lucruri inutile si sa ma bucur de fiecare moment. Si asa timpul alearga si nu-l putem face sa se opreasca atunci cand ne este bine. Sper sa fiu suficient de ambitioasa incat sa-mi duc toate planurile la bun sfarsit. Sa am speranta si incredere in mine. Sa-mi pastrez demnitatea si, orice as face, sa fac pentru ca asa simt si sa fiu mandra de mine.

Vreau sa scriu mai mult.

Va urez cel mai bun an de pana acum, doar dorinte implinite, incredere in propriile forte, planuri duse la bun sfarsit, multa iubire, oameni dragi alaturi si, nu in ultimul rand, sanatate, ca restul se implinesc, cu putin efort. Sa intrati zambareti in noul an si sa nu va piara zambetul pe tot parcursul lui!

Beautiful U R- Deborah Cox

Beautiful U R- Deborah Cox – remix.

The lies
Things may not always go right, for you
In those times
Just leave it behind
Cause sometimes you gotta play the game
Just to survive
Without losing yourself
it’s a fight, it’s true
It takes time
don’t have all the answers
No matter how hard it gets
Hold on to what’s inside

[Chorus]
don’t never let nobody
bring you down girl
don’t never let nobody
tear your world apart
Look in the mirror and see who you are
Beautiful U R

In the dark
The pain chips away at your heart So deep
can’t you see
See the light in the distance
Open up your eyes and look,
look to the sky
And believe
there’s much more to life when your free
that’s the key
And in time
You will find all the answers
Don’t have to lose your pride
Hold on to what’s inside

[Chorus]
don’t never let nobody
bring you down girl
don’t never let nobody
tear your world apart
Look in the mirror and see who you are
Beautiful U R
don’t never let nobody
bring you down girl
don’t never let nobody
tear your world apart
Look in the mirror and see who you are
Beautiful U R

Don’t care what they say anymore
there’s no time to be insecure
I’m leaving it all at the door

She staring it in the face
she’s taking it day by day
I’m finally on my way

[Chorus]
don’t never let nobody
bring you down girl
don’t never let nobody
tear your world apart
Look in the mirror and see who you are
Beautiful U R
don’t never let nobody
bring you down girl
don’t never let nobody
tear your world apart
Look in the mirror and see who you are
Beautiful U R
Beautiful U R
Beautiful U R
Beautïful U R

Garou- Stand up

Dream yourself awake..

Can’t make it through the night
Wicked dreams will haunt you,

When the morning light shines
You try to find your way outside..

Just another day
You try to let them shine
The people disappoint you
Makes you wonder why you cry
You can almost see the end of you !

So come on STAND UP!!
Yeah , put your hands up
It ain’t wrong to be strong
And it’s gonna be gone
And then they won’t come back to you
No no no no ..
WAKE UP !
Try not to break up
If they’re holding you down
Then you rise to the top
Cuz you’re a bad bad girl
And you just can’t stop
No no no ..

Give yourself a break
Listen to your heart
Let your conscience guide you
Never let your guard down
Find out the best of you

Everything you do
And what is done to you
Doesn’t have to change you
It only makes you stronger and stronger
The more they take away from you

You won’t lead no beggars life
And you sure don’t need their bad advice
Or their five cents worth of what they think of you
Sometimes they’re not so into you
Keep your head up above that line, you know
Everybody loses sometimes

Shame shame shame

The things they’ve done to you !!

Reamon- SuperGirl
You can tell by the way, she walks that she’s my girl
You can tell by the way, she talks that she rules the world.
You can see in her eyes that no one is her chain.
She’s my girl, my supergirl.

And then she’d say, it’s Ok, I got lost on the way
but I’m a supergirl, and supergirls don’t cry.
And then she’d say, it’s alright, I got home late tast night,
but I’m a supergirl, and supergirls just fly.

And then she’d say that nothing can go wrong.
When you’re in love, what can go wrong?
And then she’d laugh the nightime into day
pushing her fear further long.

And then she’d say, it’s Ok, I got lost on the way
but I’m a supergirl, and supergirls don’t cry.
And then she’d say, it’s alright, I got home, late last night
but I’m a supergirl, and supergirls just fly.

And then she’d shout down the line tell me she’s got no more time
’cause she’s a supergirl, and supergirls don’t hide.
And then she’d scream in my face, tell me that leave, leave this place
’cause she’s a supergirl, and supergirls just fly

Yes, she’s a supergirl, a supergirl,
she’s sewing seeds, she’s burning trees
She’s sewing seeds, she’s burning trees,
yes, she’s a supergirl, a supergirl, a supergirl, my supergïrl..

Astea sunt melodiile mele de suflet, care ma binedispun intotdeauna si-mi dau forta si incredere in mine. Optimism, zambet, dorinte, sperante si ambitie pozitiva, toate ma definesc acum. LA MULTI ANI!